Letting Go.

I've held onto this for far too long..
I can't let go of the very thing that's killing me.
It's all working out in my mind...but on the outside it's not as great as it seems.

I'm trying my hardest to maintain this victimized state.
Really, it's just my own fault.
I put myself in this situation in the first place.

I'm just hurt.
You don't even care.
You don't even know I'm here.

This is the hardest thing I've had to do.
But God will have nothing less than all of me.
I have to let you go..

As much as I want to help you,
I've been draining myself dry.
I'm surprised I have tears to cry.

I had a dream..
You hadn't changed a bit.
5 years, you stayed the same.
Same bad habits, same lifestyle.
I see more potential than you see in yourself.
This dream...it couldn't be true.

I was sure you'd come around.
Change...and get back on track.
That we'd have a life together.
That we'd be happy, in fact.

I can't keep fighting this.
This same routine..
You say it's just, "a different theology".
I walked away shattered.

But I just kept going..
I didn't know whereto..
I kept going..
I didn't need you.

God's the only one.
The only one that stands True.
The only one who loves me..
He loves you too..

We're both just hurt,
But there's nothing I can do.
I've tried to fix you.
I don't know what else to do..

You have a broken heart.
It's ok, I do too..
But mine's broken..
Because of you.

Your careless words.
You left me out to dry.
In the drenching rain..
You left me alone to cry.

I stood outside your window.
Watching your life go by.
You thought you were ok..
But you were living a lie.

One day you'll wake up,
But it will be too late.
That ship has sailed..
And you're a day too late.

You'll realize that you wasted your life.
Never satisfied..
Filled with emptiness..

I can't say that I never tried.