My Soul is Disturbed.

My soul is disturbed.
It's disturbed by sin...
Thoughts of sin...
The consequences of sin...
The things we do to ourselves.
The situations we put ourselves in.
It just disturbs me.

The darkness of the world.
The depth of evil.
The blackness and coldness we feel.
A depraved state of mind..
It disturbs me.

I'm disturbed by my realization of what "sin" is.
The disturbing part about sin, is that we can't escape it.
We WILL fall short, but that makes God's mercy even more merciful.
Sin has 2 forms: internal and external.
Sin is internalized by the impurities of our hearts, our own evil desires.
Sin moves from the internal to the external.
What could form as bitterness, resentment, etc. can form into gossip, slander, malice.
Lustfulness can be acted upon.
Ultimately, sin is anything that separates us from God no matter what "category" it's in.
...And our body and soul are left to deal with the consequences..

I'm disturbed.
I wish I could purge my body of every ounce of sin.
To be perfect...because that's what God desires of me.
To be holy and pure, without it there is no reaching Heaven..

I'm disturbed by by the fact that not everyone will meet Jesus.
.....the ones who claim there is no God.
.....the ones who hate God.
.....the bad things that happen to us as a result of evil.
.....the ones who DO those evil things.

I feel afflicted by the pain of others.
My wrists hurt when I think of others cutting themselves.
My stomach aches for those who make themselves throw up.
My heart hurts for the broken-hearted.
I'm disturbed..

Jesus met people where they were.
Paul became all things to all people so that some may be saved.

Does sin disturb you?
It sure disturbs me.

I don't want this blog to be taken the wrong way...or to be emo or seen as negative.
After this I read Philippians 4:8.
"...whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy- think about such things."
I guess I'm getting to my point...let your soul be disturbed by the sin in your life, and let your mind be disturbed by positive things in the process.

noble.
right.
pure.
lovely.
admirable.
excellent.
praiseworthy.

Think on these things.
It may make your struggle against sin a little easier.