1 Peter 2:11

1 Peter 2:11...

"Dear friends, I urge you, as foreigners and exiles, to abstain from sinful desires, which wage war against your soul."

This verse has been popping out at me the past few days. 
I know why, I just don't want to change.
Rather, change is more difficult than my flesh wants to endure.

The world isn't where we live. We do literally, but we have citizenship in heaven with Christ one day. We're foreigners, just passing through life and its different seasons that take us by storm.  Most oftentimes, Christians are exiles...in the aspect that we should never feel comfortable where we're at.  We will never feel "at home" here on earth. At least, I don't. I long to be with Jesus everyday. Some days I just wish He would rapture me. 

Sometimes my flesh gets the best of me. Actually, many times..
I cannot go a day without sinning.
I cannot go a day without praying.
I shouldn't go a day without repenting. Do I? Probably.

To abstain from sinful desires....well, that's like telling us to not live in our skin.
We were made that way....born into a sinful world. 
A fallen world around me gets the best of me on most days.
That just means I have to try harder the next.

It's hard to "try" not to sin. You have to watch everything you do, say, and think...
Man. I can barely control my thoughts long enough to train my mind to think about something else.
If I think a bad thought, it's hard to take my mind off it until I've completed the thought. Especially the bad ones.
BUT.....although this is the most difficult spiritual concept to master, in my opinion, it's the most crucial.
"to abstain from sinful desires, which wage war against your soul"
WAGE WAR AGAINST YOUR SOUL........


I'm trying to comprehend that. 
It isn't something to take lightly, your relationship with God depends on it.
Do I try to abstain from sinful desires? Not always. At times I feel defeated, so when the temptation arises it becomes pointless to try to not sin. It just happens. 
However, this is terrible thinking....
Sin wages war against our soul. 
It's an ongoing battle, and will be, unless we learn self-control.

Sin is a fleshly desire. A desire withdrawn from the heart.
What's in my heart? It's definitely not as pure as it could be. 
Is there junk in there hidden that I need to get out? Definitely.


I'm just thinking about this verse aloud. 
It's 1 am, and this is how my thoughts process.
I guess that's what a blog is for? My deepest ponderings.
I'm going to end this by saying that sin can get out of control, it can ruin your life, it can stay hidden forever but pop up in the most inconvenient times. That's normally when you miss out on God's blessing because there's still part of you that you aren't willing to surrender. So, there's part of God that cannot bless you because you haven't been faithful in repentance and abstaining from sinful desires.  


Lord, help me.